brain dump

1. why do people you barely know invite themselves to your wedding. don't they know that's like ALOT of money for food per person?? i am neither inclined nor obligated to invite people who aren't really my friends to my wedding. but it still makes me feel mean or something. when it's not! how do i not feel bad about this?
2. i wish the shoes i am wearing to work were more comfy.
3. you can still see the face i drew on my hand yesterday during choir when me and sarah mcD were being rowdy and it was hilarious. :)
4. i have no idea how my life got to where it is, but i love it. <3
5. there's an awful lot to think about and plan for when you get married. and nothing was a shock, the realization was, it just feels like there's never enough money or time to do it all.
6. it's been SO HOTTTTTT here the last few days. 100 degrees. muggy. and hot. with all the fans going in the house & all the windows open it's still HOT. (cue: the girl with the dark hair & long legs in that red tassle outfit thing from kiss me kate singing "its too darn hot")

75 days is both too far and too close.
www.barttels.brides.com

i'm in love with this picture.

brad's dad sent me this pic of his grandparents. i want her shoes.
and their teepee. ;)

greek salads cure the grumps

i never get so grumpy and tired that i don't want to leave my house & go out to dinner, making my fiance leave the restaurant he's patiently sitting and waiting for me at, go get what i want to eat, and bring it to my apt where i am silently addressing a massive stack of cards.

if i did that, i would probably feel like a very very grateful girl who is very loved. :)

but afterwards i was fed and happy, so he left and i took my tired butt to bed (after an episode of girlmore girls). the end.

dear blog,

i solemnly swear to not blog any more ooshy things about brad. (at least not everyday)
i promise to not blog anymore about my wedding. (there should be a limit 2 per blog) i'm tired of it already after a week.
i should really blog about disneyland with my nephew last week. which was pretty much hilarious. and i secretly think my blog about sick gross soy nuked eggs is better. and sadly, also true ;)

love,
linds

lindsey learns to cook

or not cook. however you think of it.

i knew you could cook scrambled eggs in the microwave, but since i just got a microwave for the first time in a year, i kinda forget to even use it.

so i scramble the eggs in a bowl. and think to myself, "i swear you put milk in it."

so i pulled my milk from the fridge, put in a little, stirred it up, nuked it and then tried to eat.

lesson learned: DO NOT MICROWAVE SOY MILK. ick ick ick.

so i was sitting in church yesterday

thinking to myself (in slight panic, mind you)
"when did this all happen!? wait. i'm engaged?! and that means i'm getting married.
i mean, when did i even fall in love with brad!? it just, like, happened!
i'm sitting on this church bench next to my future brother in law, and next to many friends, all listening to brad mess up his talk in a very cute funny way.
this is my life. when did this suddenly become my life?!"
and make no mistake about it, one day i will wake up and it will all be real, but for now it feels kinda like this:

or maybe THIS. (it wouldn't let me embed)
OH and i keep dreaming crazy wedding dreams. remind me to tell you about the one with trash can punch bowls.
yes, thats what i said, "trash. can. punch. bowls." :)

AHAH!!!

2 points to whoever can correctly guess the metal, stone size & cut ;)

funny how something so small (and yet so large) can make one so EXTREMELY happy! i just kept showing it to brad last night saying "i get to keep it!!"

simple. plain. basically beautiful. so me. so simple. i LOVE IT.
i know what i love & man, oh man! do i love this ring and brad barttels. :)
have i blogged yet that the date is November 14th in Newport Beach!? :) it's official!

walt= genius

i wish i had something more eloquent to say.

but i am so happy.
almost to the point of laughing tears. and my face hurting from smiling.
and i haven't slept in 2 days bc my mind is running a million miles an hour and i'm so EXCITED.

for those of you like me, who didn't know, this is how you are supposed to feel when you get engaged:

• different. like you just became an adult. or joined a club. i don't know why. we can't put our finger on it, but it's different.
• your jeweler is suddenly your new bff.
• at random moments of the day you think of things that never occurred to you before. for instance, you may be talking about something completely unrelated and all the sudden you shout "we have to buy a refrigerator!" (thank goodness for brad. his response without skipping a beat was yep! but let's worry about that later :)
• the ring on your left hand feels like it was there forever. it doesn't take getting used to.
• you can't believe that HF listened to all the whisperings of your heart all these years and produced a man so perfect to your specifications.
• you feel calm. and at peace. like this was the best decision you have ever made.
  
• you feel the need to tell strangers everywhere you just got engaged. :)
• and the best moment of the entire day is the 5 minutes you sit alone in tender silence touching foreheads.
  

i used to go to the beach and ride my bike & think "this is my life!!"
i'm marrying brad.
this is my life :)
my ring is getting fixed & i have a loaner. pictures to come!!

Mrs. Bradley James Barttels.

he asked me on a park bench looking at the ocean. i love looking at the ocean.
i also am completely in love with him. :)
happy happy thoughts...